Tomorrow the final payment for our Guatemala mission trip is due. I am beyond blessed to say that our financial goal has been met. How do I even begin to thank everyone who made this happen? God provided us with $4800 dollars. This pays for our trip costs and our passport cost. This $4800 represents 36 households that contributed various dollar amounts. When this all started, I really didn't think it would happen. If you have been following my posts at all, you would know that I had doubt around every turn. Each time the doubt would set in, I was reminded how God provided before and he would provide again.
I still am in awe that God has brought us this far...why us? We have done nothing to earn special favor from God. Actually I fail him and my kids most days, so why us? Why would he take me, this broken, depressed, overweight mom, that struggles to make ends meet, who has no self confidence, who is lost most of the time, why would he allow me to go? Seriously!!!???? Most days my kids don't listen to me and I am too emotional, and on and on. But you see, when I look at me, I see myself through the eyes of betrayal, hurt and rejection. I see myself through the eyes of this world. (calm down...I'm working on that.) When the God of the universe looks at me, he sees his precious daughter. He sees me as a new creation. (II Corinthians 5:17) He sees that I radiate like a light on a hill. (Matthew 5:15) I shine like stars in the night. (Philippians 2:15) I am the salt of the earth. (Matthew 5:13) He has given me joy. (Psalms 97:11) I was created for good works. (Ephesians 2:10) I come from a lineage of royalty. (I Peter 2:9) I have been called. (Hebrews 3:1) I am victorious! (Romans 8:37) GOD chose ME to bear good fruit!!! (John 15:16)
Let’s face it, I am a work in progress, but I am starting to realize that in this place of brokenness, I am able to be molded into what God wants me to be. You see on my own, I will fail, so I am at the point in my life that I know full well, that I can’t do ANYTHING without Christ.
I am nervous about Guatemala. The kids will be on a plane, a boat and a mission trip for the first time. All he what if’s have had a field day in my head. Yet, I know, that I know, that I know, that God has called us on this mission trip. That he is about to use us and do in us amazing world changing things! Would you commit to pray for us? Cover us in your prayers? We leave in 34 days and Samuel is having his tonsils taken out this coming Thursday (6/25).
